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2007-02-03T19:58:00.000-08:00

HELLO BLOG! went shopping with steph and kah ming ytd.. too bad sarah and celine couldn't come or we would have made them try dresses!!!! I bought one while steph and kah ming bought two. I kinda regretted now buying the black one =X oh wells i like the re/orangey one too!!! shall take a pic and post it up >.< I had a lot of fun ytd..because i got to try things that i never tried before lols. This is the first time i ever bought a dress!!! weeee happys.. steph said we ought to go out one day with dresses LOL. i wonder what would happen if celine and sarah saw us HAHAHAHA! lols anyways gotta go do hw...T-T later!

2007-02-02T06:55:00.000-08:00

Your Life Path Number is 4

Your purpose in life is to build your vision.

You are practical and responsible. You work hard, knowing that there are no shortcuts in life.
You work for a better life for yourself and those you love, but you are not an idealist.
Trustworthy and honest, you also demonstrate great courage. People can count on you.

In love, you are a loyal and committed partner. You are the ideal spouse.

You don't give up easily, and sometimes you can be too stubborn and unwilling to change.
You also can be too conservative at times. You sometime miss out on good opportunities.
Also remember that not everyone can work as hard as you, as disappointing as that is!

What Is Your Life Path Number?

2007-01-30T22:15:00.000-08:00

Hello blog.. its been a while=). I had cross country at east coast today. It was quite fun, although we had to run like 3.6km. Went out with some of my classmates after that. And i realise one thing... my class ppl... some of them are just too rich. So rich that they are willing to buy a 300 dollar jeans. Surprising huh? Even if i ever saw a 300 dollar jeans i loved, i would never buy it. First thing, I am NOT rich, secondly thing even if i use my own money to pay, it will not be worth it. Money's hard to earn. It doesn't just come easily. *this part is a tad offensive 'u' does not mean anyone though...not' I know you are rich, love to shop at boutiques, hates twits or ppl who do not measure up to ur level of intelligence? Style? Financial status? Class? When i talk t0 you, I feel intimidated, because one u got a HORRIBLE temper and two likes to snap at ppl when they make trival mistake. I hope u know what this things do to ppl around you. You may seem 'nice' to ur 'old' classmate or ppl you know. But to me, you can be nice at times but sometimes you just seem to be so judgemental of people. Have u ever gone the extra mile to think about ppl's action. Have you ever thought that maybe that action is a result of your attitude? Furthermore, you talk about buying things as if you don't care about the price. Alright maybe you do and i'm a stupid and paranoid person who likes to make 'sweeping' statements. And it just struck me that I've NEVER made sweeping statements that often when I'm with ppl that I'm comfortable with. I wished that i wasn't so affected by your words. Heck they hurt, but I would like to tell myself, you are not worth. I rather have good but little memories of my Jc years. I dun wanna have them be ruin by your remarks and comments. I guess u have never come across the so called 'not so classed' ppl. I dunno why I strive to get urs and their's(bad eng) acceptance. I hate it when i feel weak. Thats why I'm starting to resent you and ur smiles and jokes. Maybe you are not serious abt ur comments but i think you are. Dam I even take them to heart. One thing, I can't be myself when I'm with you all. I can't be crazy and happy when I'm with you all. Its just lousy luck maybe. haha. So bittersweet huh. I got into the fav jc of my choice but ended in a class that I think I would never be able to get along well enough with. Sad. Maybe I'm pmsing. Whenever i see ppl being able to shop all they wan. i feel envious, but at the end of the day I wan tell myself, material things won't satisfy your life...also, you should never change urself to be like the sweet bubbly 'too much fake smile' girl. The girl who acts wayyy too much like a convent girl (no offence). I wan to be myself, the sometimes rough/clumsy/rude/crude, sweeping statement making cus shes too blur minqi. I wan to be the sometimes wayy too exaggerating, talk too much rubbish and crazy friend. Just myself. SAJC can go die. Fuck it all man. I don't wan to force myself to feel accepted. I don't wan to delude myself and say 'hey. I think i like my cca' or 'hey maybe if i do this they would talk to me more' but in reality its not exactly the case. I think i'm easily bored. I always give excuses to pon my cca, from tuition to 'study'. I've said it all. Honestly, I would have loved a cca if i got along really well with the people inside. My mood swings has gone from bad to worse. I get wayyy to sensitive all the time. I really shouldn't rely so much on people to provide me happiness. But how do i give myself happiness when i do not know how to? How can I give myself happiness when sometimes i dun even understand my own personality, actions and behaviours? How I do...make myself better and more loved? When will I stop being so sensitive? Life's fuk up. I sympathise in you steiner.. i know, life's tough. haha...right...

2007-01-10T02:38:00.000-08:00

Hellos, I'm back again lols. Been busy for these past few days, had to finish loads of tutorials and i have a chem test tmr on organic lols. stressed -.-. Anyways, school's been pretty fine...normal. I don't talk to my class people much but i do interact abit >.<. Yes, i still have trouble communicating with them. Aand as much as i feel like bitching about someone now...i wont. I rather bitch to a ear than a blog LOL. I don't have much to write now cus my life has been uneventful so far...so i'll stop for now, lols.

P.s- i dun like mole anymore -_-" But... slowpoke =X

2007-01-01T06:44:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone!!! Its been a loooooonng time since i updated lol. Been trying to complete my homework so didn't have the time to update. Anyways thats only part of the reason =X. *been trickstering too much* Okay, went out with steph, evan, lynn and angel last night to esplanade that area to celebrate the countdown. But unfortunately, it..rained -.-. And that wasn't the worse part of the trip lol. We had to squeeze a whole bunch of banglas to get on the other side so we can have better shelter. oh dear... I thought i'd died in that kind of..ehh sticky situation LOL.
Wells, in the end we went to evan's house to watch the countdown on tv, lynn had to go home early though so she couldn't make it lols. Played some PS2 game there, and it was kinda lame cus the monkeys looked kinda dumb LOL sorry evan no offence =X. Yups so thats how i spent the last few hours of 2006 lol. It was fun and i didn't expect to spend new years eve with them but i was happy =). lols Alright thats all for now, need to get to the pile of bullshit in front of me =S. Until then, tatas

2006-12-22T05:31:00.000-08:00

Creek Mary's Blood (Once)

Soon I will be here no more
You'll hear the tale
Through my blood
Through my people
And the eagle's cry
The bear within will never lay to rest

Wandering on Horizon Road
Following the trail of tears

White man came
Saw the blessed land
We cared, you took
You fought, we lost
Not the war but an unfair fight
Sceneries painted beautiful in blood

Wandering on Horizon Road
Following the trail of tears
Once we were here
Where we have lived since the world began
Since time itself gave us this land

Our souls will join again the wild
Our home in peace 'n war 'n death

Wandering on Horizon Road...

"I still dream every night
Of them wolves, them mustangs, those endless prairies
The restless winds over mountaintops
The unspoilt frontier of my kith 'n kin
The hallowed land of the Great Spirit
I still believe
In every night
In every day
I am like the caribou
And you like the wolves that make me stronger
We never owed you anything
Our only debt is one life for our Mother
It was a good day to chant this song
For Her

Our spirit was here long before you
Long before us
And long will it be after your pride brings you to your end"

A wonderful song by...nightwish.

More posts to come, although i think this blog isn't gonna last long..
oh well
later-

2006-11-21T22:09:00.000-08:00

What Does Your Birth Month Reveal About You?

August:Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless.Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride of oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.Ambitious and strong, you find it easy to be successful.You are brave and stubborn. No one's going to set your limits!Your soul reflects: Strength, character, and devotion.Your gemstone: Peridot.Your flower: Poppy (see above)Your colors: Orange, red, and light green.
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Its been a long long time

2006-11-21T22:01:00.000-08:00

After going on hiatus for so long, my blog is up again -.-. Stupid tagboard keep giving problems. Well, anyway I'm BACK!! with more pictures as i have promised but not in this post...lol Holidays are flying by quickly and i've yet to find a job. Correction. Yet to get the job lol. I hope i can use this long holiday to relax and reflect. Theres still plenty of time though.. its not even december yet. haha. And I wished it would rain more -.-.
Oh well till next time
*hope that time will come soon i;ve got lotsa photos lol*

2006-09-19T01:45:00.000-07:00

hi all =D
*tagged victims have to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lovers. specify the gender of the target. tag four victims to join in this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. if tagged a second time, there's no need to post again.

tagger: GINA LAU >:(
next victims: Kah ming, my sis, Evan,Stephanie

Target Gender: MALES (obviously -.-)

1. Rich
2. Smart
3. True to me and himself
4. Caring and nice (he must NEVER forget my birthday >:( )
5. Know how to cook =)
6. He must be sensitive to my feelings ( I'm an emotional timebomb and i'm paranoid)
7. He must more than 15 cm taller than me (i'm 154-.-)
8. I don't like clingy boyfriends -.- although i can be clingy too LOL

2006-09-14T02:18:00.000-07:00

For the past few days i've sorting a lot of things out and now,i'm feeling uber great. I don't exactly know why, but i think of the smooth stuff happening in school bah. I'm still not talking much to my class ppl, but I'm learning to take things a little easier now and sort of like 想开 a little bit. So today i'm gonna do something special for my post. I'm gonna BEAUTIFY it with pictures of the people who i spend with for 2-4 years.

heres the first one:

This was taken during teacher's day last year. (an almost complete class photo)

And this is my class boys

This are the girls ( girl on extreme top left is Krystal who is from 4 love)

On to gradnight..( i know this is OLD but i felt like putting it up)
Clockwise from top: Gina, me, KM, Ling yen, Sarah, celine

A random pic ( from left): Lynn, Alicia, Michelle(ahem*) and Stephanie

Another random pic (from left): Michelle(again -.-), Yiye, Joanne, Jia rong, Minyi, Alicia, Joshua, Si hui, Evan.

yes, i like this pic, got hot teacher. oops. (from left): me, KM, Mr Eddie Lim, Gina, Celine, Sarah

A nice warmy feeling pic =)

Taken during second class chalet.
KM and alicia
(TAKE A CLEAR LOOK AT KM) and then next look at...

THIS! See the change? no worries KM dear I still love you LOL

Well thats all for today... there will be MORE i promise.. on my closest friends..the zhens =)

2006-09-10T07:45:00.000-07:00

I just realised not long ago, that i still have a lot of angst in me. And all these anger and frustration are making me feel extremely agitated. I don't know how am i gonna relief my mind.
I hate school now, i absolutely hate it. i don't know why.. i used to love school because there are things to look forward to in school. But now, there isn't anymore. I've been forcing myself to try and look forward to try to communicate, to try to fit in, to try to be happy. I guess I've reach a stage where I just don't wanna make so many friends anymore. Its tiring. I just wanna study them, observe them. Its just like geography, I'm the limestone and they're the granite. Totally different type of rocks, with different chemical composition. I can't believe i've lost much of my love and passion for geophysic. When I saw Steve Irwin doing his stuff on TV, I felt a sense of envy. This man was so happy, doing his work, and it was something he loved doing. He was passionate about animal conservation and he sure did a lot to promote it. He's good cause he knew what he liked to. For me, its never that case, I love many things, music, geophysic and playing games. Sports never interest me, except for rounders or softball. I still can't forget the KCP rangoon campus. I felt so much at peace there. Those leaves on the trees reflecting the light, the green canopy that surrounded the field. Ultimately, I still remember how fun it was to play rounders on that field. I still remembered how Kenneth and Jr had a little bit of an argument then. Frankly speaking, even though those were tough days for me, I was actually quite satisfied with life and was at least a little happy about things. Now, I'm struggling to adapt to a new environment and to new people. Its the end of holiday and school is starting again. I feel myself pining for those days i had in secondary. No matter how complicated things were at that time, I felt that i belonged to the school. No touch rugby girls shaking their butts as they walk, no bitchy-bimbo looking girls in school, no extremely childish and ungentlemanly BOY-school males around and NO idiotic perverts like ***** around(and girls who let these boy touch their chest too). *signs* How many more months and weeks do i have to struggle through before i can reach the end of the dark and scary tunnel? Sometimes, I ask god, is it because i don't believe in you, thats why you have make my life difficult? I lose faith in myself and people around me all the time. But I guess i shouldn't be giving up yet...
I'll live, somehow.

2006-08-30T07:13:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow's teacher's day and not one of them is going back except...me. It amazing how a few months can change a few people. How they can suddenly drift apart and stop communicating. Its saddening to think about this... even when i tell myself, "Let it go minqi, its over." I knew, from the beginning I've been fighting a losing battle, a battle with time. Time can heal wounds, but it can also dilute friendship bonds. Sad huh? I'm glad i still have KM and teik ling... or else i would have break. I guess... life has to go on after all...

2006-08-29T06:42:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty fine.. although i had spa, maths test ANd a chinese test. Still, i still thought it was an 'okay' day. BUT, some bloody petty bastard had to go ruin it and it only happened a FEW mins ago. Everyone's rushing to pass up the EoM dued tmr and I, being a kind and thoughtful person (=P) when to ask ms tan about it. She said the latest we can hand up the EoM is actually thurs! happy happy.( James sent me his sample of EoM =) ) After that I told that particular classmate about it and HE snapped at me saying I HAD ALL THE TIME and IF I DIDN'T WANNA DO IT, ITS MY PROBLEM. WTF? PETTY? YEAH! (#^*$*$_&*@)_#(@_+. HAO XING MEI HAO BAO. haizzz... Get what I mean? I have to deal with these kind of people everyone and its not just one of them... they come as a package call SLC.. ( a few of them are okay but some aint) So, it pretty sad...me having been misunderstood. yeah..thats all..

2006-08-25T05:46:00.000-07:00

Went to the URA today for learning journey( URA means Urban Redevelopment Authority) and we got to see little miniature versions of buildings in singapore. Cool right? Well, we spent around 1 and half hour there loitering so we didn't actually learn *much*. After we left, the SLC(-.- seriously i hate the name, its lame), me and some other classmates went to suntec to eat. I didn't talk much along the way neither did the girls. Sad isn't it? But anyway, I got to try the taro turnover at BK ( yes, i've NEVER eaten that before) and its DAMN GOOD MAN. lol. Never thought i would be so fascinated with a turnover -.-. Me and Linda went off early because she had H3 maths class and for me, it was because i just wanted to get home ( -.- lame i know). Well, even if i had stayed, it wouldn't be fun anyway, cause' all the jokes will only be shared amongst the 'SLC' member. Sounds depressing huh? This IS my class. I gotta live with them for the next 1.5 years. How wonderful... Now, back to the good stuff, i just remembered, on our way to suntec, Darren mentioned something....dumb. He commented on this building which looked cylindrical and said... its looked like...PRINGLES(-.-") WTH? POTATO CHIPS? Sometimes I question the sanity of my classmates. LOL. Thats all for today. =)
Wanna take a small look at my classmates? Heres something...

This is an EXTREMELY OLD picture... it was like taken before the holidays?

(left from bottom: Steiner, Brien, Lester, Rengfu, Minyi, me; Right from bottom: Yuda, Poon shi, Maurine, Linda)

Another SUPER old picture... (going anti-clockwise: Maurine, Minyi, me, Linda, Brien, Wei Hao, Victor, Zhenling.

2006-08-23T06:03:00.000-07:00

FantasMic by nightwish

Wish upon a star
Take a step enter the land
Walk through the air
Take my hand
Wishmaster's will-
Join him the quest for dream
A make-believe
Is all we ever need

Wish upon a star
No matter who you are
The second star to the right
Harbinger's gate
Beyond the boundaries
Blossom ballet
In the great wide somewhere

Wish upon a star
Believe in will
The realm of the king of fantasy
The master of the tale-like lore
The way to kingdom I adore
Where the warrior's heart is pure
Where the stories will come true

Part 2

A cub of the king betrayed by usurper
A girl in the rain swearing to her father's name
Belle the last sight for the dying gruesome
The beauties sleeping awaiting
Deep in a dream
For true love's first kiss

Part 3

Bald Mountain Night
Devilheart endures but light
A mad aerial dance
Chernabog's succubi

Black Cauldron born
Gurgi's heart forlorn
Pig-keeper or hero
On a quest of augury

Maleficent's fury
The spindle so luring
Dragon fight, dying night
Dooming might

Apprentice of Yen Sid
Conducting the galaxy
Dreamer on mountaintop
Spellbound masquerade

The Sailor an idol for the six-year-old in me
The Phoenix of White Agony Creek
Enchantress, A mermaid in a tale as old as time
A Dragonslayer, The Awakener

Wish upon a star

On to the post..
I think blogger is royally screwed cus i took 10mins to log in!!! wth so long! anyways, i'm sick again and its the 5 th time of year.. surprised? I'm THAT weak. My mum just bought 5 oranges to feed cus i needvitamin C to boost my immune system. *signs* i hate being sick cus i'm throat will hurt like hell and my body will like its *contracting*. lol Today was a pretty good day.. I didn't get snapped at, and I found out i don't have to take a retest for nafa. I'm so relieved now cus i can't stand having to run 2.4km AGAIN. So sick of running. But the good thing is i lost so much weight i'm nearing my target weight in taf already. CHEERS FOR MINQI! woohoo!
Here comesthe boring part of the post~
After much thinking i've decided to just let things be. There is just no point dwelling on the decisions i've made. I just gotta work hard, get out of JC and go Uni. Then, i can meet up with teik ling and the zhens. I really hope they can make it. Especially sarah and kah ming cus their dreams is to do media stuff like advertising and mass comm.
Well thats all for today's post. I'm gonna go sleep cus my head's starting to feel kinda weird...

2006-08-21T21:56:00.000-07:00

Ghost Love Score by Nightwish

We used to swim the same moonlight waters
Oceans away from the wakeful day

- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I`ll bleed forever

Scent of the sea before the waking of the world
Brings me to thee
Into the blue memory

- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
If you be the one to cut me
I will bleed forever

Into the blue memory

A siren from the deep came to me
Sang my name my longing
Still I write my songs about that dream of mine
Worth everything I may ever be

The Child will be born again
That siren carried him to me
First of them true loves
Singing on the shoulders of an angel
Without care for love n` loss

Bring me home or leave me be
My love in the dark heart of the night
I have lost the path before me
The one behind will lead me

Take me
Cure me
Kill me
Bring me home
Every way
Every day
Just another loop in the hangman`s noose

Take me, cure me, kill me, bring me home
Every way, every day
I keep on watching us sleep

Relive the old sin of Adam and Eve
Of you and me
Forgive the adoring beast

Redeem me into childhood
Show me myself without the shell
Like the advent of May
I`ll be there when you say
Time to never hold our love

- My fall will be for you -
My fall will be for you
My love will be in you
You were the one to cut me
So I`ll bleed forever

2006-08-21T02:11:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking about how it would have been like, if i had stayed in nanyang. Would i've been happier? Sometimes when i think about the school, i find that some part of me still misses that place. I can still recall the wonderful library, the huge airy canteen, the weird smelling LTs and the quiet and scary science labs. How i miss that place... How I miss the peaceful feel of the school building. How I miss my OG mates there. How I miss the japanese food. How I miss the teachers there even though i hated some of them.

During that 2 months, I kept thinking that if i left the school(my first three months class), everything will be alright. But i was wrong... so bloody wrong. I never expected the life in Sa would so tough. I always thought that the people there would be nice and caring. I didn't perpare myself for the huge culure shock i had when i got there. I found out that people there were so different from the ones i met in my primary and secondary school years. They were just so...different. I can't say that my class is filled with 'bad' people. But they are just that kind of people that i cannot click with. No matter how hard i try, it will never work out. Mina made the right decision when she left the school, because i'm sure, she would have never been able to survive in that kind environment. I regretted my decision in coming to SA. I regretted not listening to teik ling when she said i should give NY a chance. I regretted doing so many things, I can't remember them all. But the feeling of that regret will always stay within me, gnawing at my heart, threatening to tear it into pieces.

That is why, I've resigned to fate, just swallowing every insult that is directed at me, every pissed off face that flashes at t me. Because I am never good at expressing myself. I feel weak and hopeless sometimes because i know I still have 1.5 years to struggle. I don't know how long is it going to be before my mind breaks again. I am a pessimistic person. I relied on my good friends to give me strength and hope.

Till this day i still haven't found a place that i can truely belong to, because i made so many wrong decisions. Sometimes, I wish this dark cloud looming over my head would clear soon, so i can at least smile and not make others moody as well.

I wish I can be free of the clutches of my fear and paranoia.
I wish I can fly like a bird, away from hard feelings, away from the people that I detest.

But that's not going to happen, because reality, is cruel.

2006-08-20T00:56:00.000-07:00

As quoted from sarah's post, 'Time... flies like rockets when you enjoy'. How right can she be? The time i spent with Sarah, Celine and Gina yesterday was wonderful, great, enjoyable and most definitely worthwhile... How i wish i could go out with them soon. How i wish the next time we go out kah ming can make it too. How i wish... we will never be seperated, even after maybe 5 years? 10 years? Its amazing how time can change things. I lost my favourite teacher to the clutches of unfair justice so suddenly that i didn't have the time to react properly, to sit and think about it. I couldn't bring myself to go back anymore, because every single time i step into that place, i am overwhelmed by memories, memories of friends, of their laughter, of the joy, the stress and memories of my favourite teacher, ah leow. How cruel can fate be huh? Suddenly i lost a huge part of my life and i only had a few days to pick up the pieces. How... hard can life be?

2006-08-20T00:41:00.000-07:00

I've just found out, listening to keane's song really relaxes my senses cus the guy's vocals really soothing... I would definitely recommend both their albums to people out there who likes soft rock.

2006-08-19T09:38:00.000-07:00

AT LAST...I've finally changed my blog layout. From the plain old purple lilies to a nice black autumn leaf-vy one. I am sooo satisfied.
Went out with sarah, celine and gina today, and it was SUPER DUPER FUN. Their crazy jokes really made my day and those small talks about school made me feel even better. We crapped, bitched?, laughed, zi lianed( me and celine were the pang guan ze XD) and play some weird open close open close game. And guess what i still don't the answer to it!!! SARAH TELL ME!!!! Anyway, we had LOTSA fun, too bad kah ming couldn't make it or else it would have been even more exciting lol. hah.. how i miss the laughter of that trios lol I've got no picture to post so please go to gina's blog to view and she probably has some weird and funny captions whipped up with them lol. I'm gonna start blogging again so i can at least bitch and crap. This way, i don't have to always BIAN BIAN BIAN. So don't be surprised if i start unleashing my wrath in the post lol.
thats all for this post =)

2006-08-06T08:25:00.000-07:00

this late post is to clarify what i meant in my previous one. I am happy for all of you who have found your place... but i will help those who hasn't... i haven't found a place i can belong in... but i won't give up cus teik ling told me not to.. we told each not to... somethings are better left alone.. i guess.. when its time to face up to reality then its time to... as much as i hate to admit it... i hafta give up abit.. but not entirely... for some i will but for some i won't.. be it 1 week or 4 months.. there will be an outing... no matter what i won't stop fighting for myself and for others... what i believe in is not the same as some... but we all have a common goal and that is to stay together... for as long as we can try... i hope fate won't be cruel... so hope is what i am going hang on to...and nobody's gonna stop me...

2006-08-06T06:42:00.000-07:00

After what i've just read from some blogs, I can't help but need to write this down. Moving on.. this two words means alot of things. To some people, moving on means forgeting ur past and embark on a new journey in your life. On the other hand, moving on may mean just carrying on with life, but with ur memories beside you and your past beside you too. What I've just read saddened me greatly... and i dare say.. i'm disappointed. Do we mean that little to you? Do we have to let the word boring come between all of us? I always thought this friendship ran deep.. deeper than many other ones i had. After reading it, I think i was wrong. I'm not saying you can't move on.. i can see you are happy with your life now. Being with people who appreciates your style right? I can't say if i really can accept the REAL you but what i can do say is that I can't accept your the words you just said. Are you running? Are you just throwing everything away because you feel the strain from it? Are you giving up so quickly when maybe you haven't tried enough? I thought you hating failing? I hate failing too..I hate failing my friends... thats why i try my very very best not to let them down. I will fight on no matter what... cos this what i am hanging on to...the zhens was the best thing that happened to me and i won't let it slip away from me so easily like this. I won't let the word 'boring' prevent me from organising more outings and somehow make a few people's heart happy. I believe in deep connection. AND I WILL DEEPEN IT NO MATTER WHAT. Even if you do move on and forget. I won't forget you...cus i will still love you as a friend...

-When memories are too hard to bare, you put them behind,
but when memories are too sweet to forget, you put them alongside-

2006-08-06T04:09:00.000-07:00

LO AND BEHOLD!!! the quiet and boring minqi has finally update her blog!!! hehs.. i know i haven't been updating for ages but i can't be blame cus i haven't been in the best of moods these fews months. I had to deal with hypocrites, noisy freaks, spoilt brats, hot tempered people and of cos NICE people in school. I just found out too, there's probably no use if i keep trying to establish a connection with my class when its so obviously not possible. So i give up, but then, i won't give up on the people i care for, those that had stood by me and gave me my peace. I don't know why but i think this blog is solely for my sad ramblings only, so don't expect any happy updates. I like to keep happy memories to myself =)
thats all for this update

wait for the new layout! =DDDDDDDDDDD

2006-05-08T07:47:00.000-07:00

I have decided to blog after much consideration.
Okay, not true, it was this sudden urge that hit me when i was reading somebody else blog. It strike me that i needed something to rant ON and to let off some steam from my head. Yes, I am depressed and DEPRIVED. Deprived of what? Friends, laughster, old sec sch frens and many many other things. I miss my old sec sch frens ALOT, so much so that i cannot find ANY word to describe my feelings now. Pardon me, I am feeling abit nostalgic. Whenever i think back to those times i had in sec sch, it brings a smile to my face, the laughter, the joy, the happiness and, the peace... I really miss those times, especially those that i spent during my last year in KCP.. how i wished that....
i know zhens is no more, but i told myself i had to keep what remains of the zhenz together. I feel that this friendship, this bond that we had can't be just left thrown away...like some forgotten bear. I can't do it. People may think i just some selfish girl who doesn't want to let go off her past. But ARE my friends my past? NO, they're not, they are still my friends..my PRESENT friends living in the same timeline as me.
And, my good friends list still includes you. You may think that in time we will distant ourselves from each and will eventually forget one and another, but i'm telling you this. It is NOT going to happen. As i said before, this friendship is very important to me and i don't its worth letting go just like that. I miss you too. Even though it may seem that we have forgotten you but the fact is, we just can't find the words to say to you anymore. Theres so much in our mind but yet its that little that we can say. I hope that you would understand that even though you have moved on and are willing to...forget us...we will not erase your name from our memory and we will always ALWAYS treat you as our good friend.
Frankly speaking, my new class is falling apart and its only MAY, MAY!! Theres so much i have to deal with and yes, i have school blues as well... I can't stand it anymore. Going through school everyday is a torture to me. I can't talk, i can't relate, i can't connect. I've tried, really tried my best, but if the opposite party is willing to wake up and stop being so childish, maybe the class would have been better off. And mina wouldn't have left... This is why i am constantly reminded, i miss my sec sch friends and i still need them to walk with me throughout these two years of my life and maybe for the many years to come. I love everyone of them as a friend and am NOT willing to give them up. I may seem like some weakling but needing my friends is not the same as wanting my friends. I need and want my friends. They already played a huge part in my life and I for once felt peace because of them.
So, one last message...
Thank you for everything.

2005-10-13T06:47:00.000-07:00

3 weeks from o levels and I am still playing... what the hell am I doing!!! I really hope that this 3 weeks would just pass by as quickly as it can cus I pretty done with waiting. I always wonder how it will feel like when we finish the chem paper on the last day of olevels. Will there be chaos? Pure bliss? Happiness? Or just a simple sense of relief? Well, I sure hope time will pass by quick enough for me to experience that. Frankly speaking, I already have a picture in my mind on what's gonna happen the moment the examiner says, " We have done counting the paper, you may go." Imagine the excitement, the joy that everyone's gonna show. Some may even start crying for all you know. I think this is what everyone's looking forward to. The day when we will close one chapter in our lives and start a new one with a sense of vigor. Yes, this is what I'm looking forward to.
But, there's still things that one would find hard to let go of and that's friendship. Throughout this four years in school, I've seen many things, especially quarrels. People made hurting remarks to each other, bad-mouthed behind each other's back. Still, when I sawmy classmates sticked together till the very end, it really brought joy to my heart because I know, this 4-yeared bond that we had build together wasn't going to break that easily. I agree with the saying that the greatest gift man had ever had is the power to forgive because I saw forgiveness shown many times throughout these few years and this taught me to forgive as well. Letting go is hard but when we make an effort to let go, its the first step to forgiveness.
So, I hope that as we leave this school and start a new chapter in our life the spirit of 4 truth will not just ends there but be carried on even when we are in our 50s ( this is exaggerating I know but hey...I'm telling the truth).
This is a message to the Zhens ( Gina, Celine, Kah ming, Sarah, Ching Sheng, Glenn, Kuan Wei and half zhen lynn?)
Although the zhen family is only about a few months old, I know that those times that we had spend together, whether it is shopping or studying, had left a deep impression in all of us. I really gonna miss you all. Even though we'll still meet one day but, I just can't help it, ya know. It just feels friggin' sad and there's still so much stuff we can do together. Time just never waits huh? Now, we only have just 3 weeks before we go for our final battle. I really hope we will not forget each other when we go JC. Finally, I wanna thank all of you who had always been there for me and had always put up with my sometimes-not-so-tolerable behaviour. Oh my god, this is so sad to talk about. Also I wanna thank kah ming for being with me for these 4 years. I remember the first time when we partnered other during assembly( because nobody wanted to partner me) you would talk about A1...hehe...and the benjamin what ah?
If I keep writing like this, its never gonna end... when lynn showed that video in auditorium on wed, I almost wanted to cry. But, haizz, everything has to come to an end right?
So I guess....Xun ji zi ran ba....
Bye.
Love, minqi.

2005-09-02T05:01:00.000-07:00

Went to swensens today with the zhens (minus KM and strawberry pie) to celebrate CS's birthday. All of us manage to order some food without really going bankrupt. Gina and I ordered frosted choco malt ice cream that tasted real good, but only for the first few spoonful. As you eat on it gets abit disgusting.
GINA!!!!!!!!!!! teach me how to get radio blog please.............

2005-08-28T07:02:00.000-07:00

In case you guys( ppl who visit my blog) are wondering whether I'm still alive a not. Here's your answer.
I am still breathing and am still up and jumping about. But its seems that blogging nowadays has become an extremely boring issue. Its not that i'm complaining, but I really hate having to ome up with things to type on this damn blog. Well, frankly speaking. I've been having bouts of writer's block when I'm trying to type something. It just seems so argh... troublesome...
Anyway, I'm having my prelims soon and my mugging mode is almost 100% up. So, I guess I won't blogging for a while. But fear not (this sounds familiar) I will be back with new ehhh chapters of my dull and boring daily life. : )

2005-07-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

I always wondered how some people could get over the mistakes they make in such a short period of time. Because I can't, the guilt stays for long even for small ones. Sometimes you will asked yourself, " Why did I do that? How did it turn up so bad? Why am I so stupid? Why didn't I think before I act?". People always say its the best to forget about it and get on with life. But somehow I find that it is not easy as how they had said it would be. To forget, is like cutting off a piece flesh off ur body. Its hard and painful. Maybe I should really let go of myself and eventually learn to forgive the evil and stupid side of me.
Sorry to those who I've cause pain to, now and before. am sorry.

2005-07-15T06:15:00.000-07:00

Its been such long long time since I've post a decent blog. So, as you can see I am trying to type out one but first, I need to vent out all my anger.

dear fucking bitch, please, look at urself in the mirror before you flirt cus its really disgusting and nauseating. I'm not trying to say that I look like some goddess, but hey, at least I don't go around flirting like some Bim. I have brains ya know. I'm sure you are aware that there's someone else who is after his heart as well. You can consider her as your rival. But seriously, do you think you have what it takes to win his heart?? Maybe we can opt out ur looks but you certainly don't have good character either so why work so hard to *lure* him over? Bitch, wake up, this is not the lala land where you can play with people's feelings. This is the real world. You can't just go around saying, " Oh, since you don't like me, then I must show you all of my wrath." This is like total bullshit. okay, lets put this way, humans weren't created for you to play and throw around so quit flirting bitching and get on with ur bloody life without making anybody's live miserable.
Another thing, U black bimbo. stop giving me looks just because I left the table immediately after you sat down. You obviously knew that we wrere waiting for them, so why did you have to thicken ur bloody dark ulu face and sat with us happily? The reason why I walked away was because they didn't have any place to sit in the table, cus YOU CAME. AND, I left abruptly was becus I wanted to sit with them. do you understand now? but frankly speaking u are a bimbo, but minus the pretty part. *smiles*
And to the second bitch in my list, can you please stop giving me faces when I try to tok to her? Its not like I'm interrupting any conversation between the both of u and, if the both of us want to tok, you can't stop us. Don't think that you are now sitting beside her, you can get her over to the DARK SIDE. Its not easy, cus she's stubborn and full of justice. (that didn't came out right but nvm). One more thing, she has been having headaches, so could you please don't talk so much because ur voice is irritating and it even makes people cringe. oh yeah the black woman too. ur voice is TOO high, although I can go higher than you but ur voice sounds even more yucky than the bitch.

Okay, enough of the craps. Here's the decent blog.

Today, Celine, Sarah, Gina, CS and I went to J8 to get ehhh a gift for someone. Initially, we were quite broke cus we only had money left for our lunch so Jeana kindly lent gina I think money so we could buy something. We walked and walked around the whole of J8, but we manage to get a nice decent present, was pretty happy with it. Oh yes, did I ever mention CS is such a kluz? He actually dropped a CD, and the cover broke into half or something. We tried to fixed it back but it seems that a small piece cracked out. We were actually smart enough to pretend nothing happened and place the CD back on the shelves. After that we went to KFC because our legs really needed a rest from all the walking. And so we sat there and tok and tok and tok...about almost everything lah... but I didn't know until this day that CS is reeeaaalllyyy evil. But, I still think he's a good guy....hahaha. The best thing I saw today was this huge pig that was so huggable!!!! I WANT IT!!! *sniff* I'm acting like a child again *wakes up* Does anyone believe that I actually yawned more than ten times from the start of typing this blog till now? I really tired but at the same time I wanna play comp too.
I wanna try the rancho wrap thingie in KFC cus it looks soooooooo appetizing. Argh I'm suppose to be on a diet!!!!!. Oh nvm... I think I'm going to sleep soon. Till next blog. Chaoz!!

2005-06-30T06:29:00.000-07:00

Okay....I know I haven't been updating for a long long time... but hey seriously, the blame doesn't lie entirely on me ya know * dodges the eggs* cus there were just too much WORK*... work= neverending flow of non recycled environmental damaging pile of SHEETS* and I will never forget to mention that mr tan is a total despo... doesn't he know his own limit and OUR LIMITS or even the other teachers limit... he doesn't allow us to do other teacher's work during his lessons but then doesn't it sound very contradicting and selfish that he expects us TO DO HIS WORK during other teacher's lessons?? its total crap... how can a teacher be so selfish? he is just down right senile not to realise such basic manners damn him.... and he still calls himself a christain...argh bullsh*t...
Anyway, enough of insults...here's the happy stuff...I mean its not exactly happy...but they are still ideal for blogging hehehhe... the school food and funfair is coming.....and I AM NOT ANTICIPATING IT.... ARGH...its so troublesome......asking for donations here and there....

update only

2005-06-18T23:52:00.000-07:00

This is a small update for my semi-dead blog.
Why is the government not doing anything to stop global warming!!! ( its possible, just watch flinstone)
It is so damn freaking hot out there and staying at the 35th storey doesn't help much either because you know, in physics, they say HOT AIR RISES. Stupid weather. I am pretty sure the temp outside is about 35 degree celsius. I wonder why people can still go out there for *argh* SUNBATH.. its crazy... don't they know the risk of skin cancer... no kidding here man.... its UV rays we are talking about...
AND a thousand apologies for those who came to my house on fri... I'm really sorry... I was so sick the pass few days that's why I couldn't plan something nice for all of you... really sorry... but hey.... people always say second time's a charm... so be sure to visit my house again... I'll ask my mum to prepare some tasty food :)

The holidays are ending soon... but the pile of homework or should I say the pile of 'stress-inducing non-recycled papers' seems to be expanding instead of shrinking... *argh* I do have to admit there's still lots of work I have to do catching up on... but I guess I can manage.....*I guess*
homework left:
Everything

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......I am so dead....

May god bless me

Amen

~just kidding~

I'm not a christian neither am I an atheist so don't get any ideas....

announment

2005-06-08T07:28:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe the words you said...they are too contradicting and, I can't help but feel that you have something sinister going on in ur mind...are you for real or are you living in a world of deceive? Are the people in your clan that complex? People may never know.

2005-06-08T00:38:00.000-07:00

I always wondered what it would be like to call someone no brains? Does it give a person a sense of satisfaction or a sense of pure elation? I really don't know. But hey, to all fucked ups out there, if ur tiny little brains give you the right to insult others then I guess you probably don't have any brains at all. Don't bother wishing for one because ur head is too small and empty to contain even a pig's brain. Too bad isn't it? Well that may just be for the good of whole entire human race. From what ppl say, you and your clan may seem influencial with ur antics , but let me warn you here, it won't affect the whole universe cus, you have no brains. Do you need me to repeat that? No brains.

2005-05-31T22:55:00.000-07:00

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

You love me
When you tell me that you love me

2005-05-27T05:14:00.000-07:00

Hey, today I am posting something real special for those ones I treasure. First, I would like to thank my good friend ONG AH MING!!! opps wrong spelling its ong kah ming... thnaks alot man for being there for me and of course enduring my crazy mood sometimes... I appreciate it.. and ur singing has improved KEEP IT UP BABY!!! hahahaha... thank you... there's so much I wanna say but just can't recall them all at once hahahhahaha...
To teik ling who has also always been there for me... hahahaha you little chilli padi....hehehehhehe....you must forget about the MUSTARD okay? he's not worth it.....hahahahah... once again, I have so much to say here too but...there's this writer's block I'm having that's preventing me from thinking up something to write....hahaha but hey I'm really grateful to you for being my friend all this time thank you... you too kah ming...hahahahha

I shall NOT care about those petty people...they dun deserve my anger and attention right??? hahahahaha.

ALSO huge thanks you s to Darell, James, Gina (hahahaha shocked to have ur name mention? hey dun feel down girl ya not dumb...U MUST WORK HARD...AND SHOW EVERYONE...you can do it!!!) and great load of others for encouraging me....thanks for all your support....I'm thankful to have friends like you all...

To those you know who....I will not changed cus I love myself...for who I am...if you all just can't accept then FUCK IT...I dun care....

hahahahha had to write that out...thanks alot peeps....I LOVE YOU KM TL !!!!!!

2005-05-22T02:24:00.000-07:00

I have been mugging chinese for the past few days and its getting real boring... argh...damn..I haven't finish sec chi yu shou ze and the next mock exam is due on tues..boy I really need to bulk up or else I can jolly well forget about my 1 for chinese olevel... haizzz... sian...I just wanna do well....issit so hard?? chinese is like my weakest sub and *sniffs* ahhhhhh I think i'm gonna cry soon...*sniffs*okaysss
I GONNA CHIONG!!!
I dun care... people who took chinese olevel already said it was easy if effort was put into preparation...
soooooooo I'm gonna work so hard for it...then for June holidays I can concentrate on other subs..
I can't believe charlotte church is releasing *eeps!!* new POP* album
goshhh that crazy... I think singing opera song suits her better..hmmmm oh well...
BSB releasing album on june 14 and I'm of cos anticipating it cus I used to be a huge fan of them hehehhe
Kylie minogue's surgery has been successful which is a wonderful thing. I mean she's cool right and at this age, not many woman can still flaunt their assets like how she does it..hmmmm
oh well anyway...that's all..

weird

2005-05-17T05:08:00.000-07:00

Now, things has been getting a little out of hand in the class. well, here's the stuff, my classmates have been losing money including me and of cos HER. Personally, I think the culprit is really dumb..if he/she wants to steal money dun steal from her lahhh... sure die a very painful death... definitely... well..I have my suspects on the list.... but the common one is I mean You-Know-Who....but we don't have any evidence on our hands so we can't really go blame anyone yet... just have to wait for he/she to strike again... but I don't think the theif would be so stupid to steal at such a bad time...I mean everyone is on their guard now... keeping their stuff with them when they leave the class...but then again...maybe the theif is stupid after all..I mean to steal from HER is suicide...since she's so evil...BUT... the top place of my list -world's most evil being- has changed to someone else...man the person had beat the almightly great top raider. okay sorry.. I shouldn't be saying this but I can't help it. haizzz... poor peeps...she is really damn sway... i mean others too man...and who the HELL will go memorise the ID of the money note?? This is like the weirdest thing I ever heard of...damn....how amusing....hehsss... anyway one last thing... let me say this again...

Justice will be fulfilled eventually.

goodbye.

2005-05-16T01:14:00.000-07:00

LaLiHo!! guess what? I FAILED my bio paper and how does that sounds???? hehs it was expected since i NEVER listens in bio class and another reason is of course because i didn't study for it so...ehhhh yeahhh fail hahahahhahaha...32/80 man.. I'm wondering why i'm so happy...well.. i dunno... exams are over..I'm so gonna start chinese revision soon. AND sort out my stuff for the LONG LONG journey of JUNE.... hahahahahahha well... not much to say these few days... gonna play maple so soon.. can't stand it.. I WAS addicted and it does not hurt to get addicted again hehehehehehhe....

2005-05-12T07:01:00.000-07:00

It always ends here
No matter how hard you try
To forget to forgive
It will still end up that way
How many times
How many weeks
Is it that hard?
I don't know
But, is there hope?
To reach out to
Will there be a replacement?
I don't know
But somehow
Life always end up this way
Course there's no more choices left
except for one
To forget
Can it be done?
Well,
I do not know anymore

-dunno why I wrote this..just pop out of my mind hehs-

2005-05-10T07:14:00.000-07:00

Had my bio paper 2 and amaths paper 1 today and seriously I'm like so gonna fail my bio cus I didn't study at all....actually its the same for amaths also...just practice the day before..and i have like amaths paper 2 tml. Well, I'm not gonna practice cus its damn boring and what's the point anyway...its already like 10:22pm haizzz...I dunno lahhh.. just don't feel like doing any revision now...sian...wanna see how I fare without doing much revision...yeahhh so..i'm slacking hehs...dun have much to say these few days....its just so...boring.... i dunno...everything just doesn't seen real anymore...its like i'm floating in a dream...or just waiting for something to happen.....well, I really dunno...haizz... hell why do I keep saying I dunno??? damn it...haizzzz....I dunno...
-Simple Plan-untitled-
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Chaoz!!!

dumb day

2005-05-07T23:52:00.000-07:00

Frankly, I really dun have much to say cus...i mean it was a boring day with latsa amaths and bio...I am damn freaking tired now actually....wait...then WHY THE HELL AM I BLOGGING?? nvm...I seriously need some ehhh ginseng to boast my body power....like *redbull gives you wings* weeeeeeeeeeeeeee....hehs..that's lame...nvm..having ah leow tuition tml...then after that gonna pia chem...cus chem its like my fav sub of all sciences..sooo i'll put extra effort in it...hehehe...okayss...seriously i dun have much to say these feww days....I keep having *thoughts* that i shld not have...i promised TL and other friends that I will stop...damn it...but it hurts man...pains a hell lot...goshhh...i can't breathe..arghhh...nvm...i guess that's all...just chill now and chat...but I"M STILL BORED!!!!!

great day

2005-05-06T23:47:00.000-07:00

Okay, just finished my emaths paper 1 and i havta admit it wasn't THAT hard...i mean compared to Qs given in ah leow tuition..and the TYS... so I hope I can score well...at least it can save my paper 2 if i ever flung it. hehs but i made a few careless mistakes here and there...and of cos my brain was like so tired after i finished the paper... cus too much energy was used up calculate stuff like 8.8*22...hahaha dumb right?? paper 1 sux cus we are not allow to use our cal-buddies...yeahhh... finished amaths revision on most chaps already...didn't feel like doing some Qs...sian lah....have'nt practice Trigo and PC... calculus too..so I will just catch up on those tml.....and do some bio here and there...as for chem...i'll just leave it up to sunday to chiong hahahahaha... wonder if i can make it...lost the QA book i bought at ah leow tuition...damn it...nvm i'll go try look for it again...cus its damn freaking important...i think that's all its like 11:45pm and my eyes hurts...but i still have to go finish my bionomial...damn it...SIAN AHHHHHH....i wonder how some muggers can stand it cus its DAMN FREAKING BORING....ARGHHHH...goshhh why do I always rant?

*i have no idea*

*goodnite*

2005-05-05T22:40:00.000-07:00

It is exactly 10.31pm and i just finished doing emaths....a few Qs here and there...pretty much the normal stuff...I slacked too much and I wanna see how difficult the paper is tml...haizzz...I seriously have no idea what to do...i have never slacked so much during an exam period....so am I losing my touch??? I don't think so.. i can still multi-task... went ah leow tuition today and waited for him for 40 mins. Yes, it is true.... 40mins...teik ling didn't come cus she had SS on the next day...I hope she does well for it...cus she's somehow like me...poor in humans...but we will both work very hard!!!! hehs guess I'll just aim for Temasek JC..hahaha....actually I wanted to go V but...my cousin said they will force you to drop ur forth sub if you dun do well in ur first year.... Ouch.... that's like so BAD....so this is the reason why I have decided NOT to risk going through that shit...hahahahaha...okay I'll go spend 30mins reading my emaths...last year paper was pretty easy....oh yes!! locus Qs are bound to come out...I better remember to bring my compass....and oh yeahhh I'm pretty confirmed that some CH people ARE crazy.........

Listening to Jay Chou Tornado-

laliho....

2005-05-04T21:38:00.000-07:00

Damn... I totally screwed up my egeog ....i mean i was like crapping through the whole entire paper....cus seriously, i don't know a damn thing about what the Qs actually wants. soooooo, i crap through the whole entire shit... and i can't believe i actually wrote 1 and half page for a 13 mark Q....that's like so many words compared to my normal amount.... oh well... that's the power of crap... surprisingly i am study emaths now (i'll practice later) so once again why the hell am I blogging and again.... I know i can multi-task but somehow my brain today is pretty slow cus i just wrote too much for egeog... oh brother... i really hope the weekends will come soon... i mean, come on, i'm already counting down the days to the END OF MID YEARS!! yessss how i wish that it will end soon. I'm so bored now... its only paper one.. and I can't use calculator so i'll test my brain...
56743+3453=60196
2^5=32
70000*500000=35000000000
256878+56984=313862
1 4 9 16 25 36 49 64 81 100 121 144 169
1 8 27 64 125 216 343 512 729 1000
hey, there wasn't any calculator use trust me...

=)

listening to sadness and sorrow-toshiro masuda-naruto ost

2005-05-04T07:55:00.000-07:00

Its 10:59pm now and i'm like struggling for my egeog... i meannnn...why the hell am i blogging anyway???...issit because i'm just plain lazy to do agriculture-manufacturing-development-tourism??? or issit i'm collapsing from too much stress... i seriously have no bloody idea... and why the hell did the teachers put the egeog paper just before emaths???? damn it... i do not want to fail my emaths...okay....i may be extremely slack at times....BUT overall i'm pretty much a mugger too....you see i like to balance my studies and my comp.....
but somehow....

the schedule just gets messed up all the time....

i actually spend more time thinking and talking to myself ( hey, I am not crazy...its just reflecting, REFLECTING ya hear that!!)

soooooo...... since my egeog is F9 standard...and i'm would love to get an A1 for it...

then...

why the hell am I STILL CRAPPING???!!!

ARGHHHHHH and BLEARGHHH( sorry for copying u SK james...didn't mean to)

can someone just tutor me on EVERYTHING???

mmid years sux a hell lot...and i amm sure many people agree too... so shld i study??? i dunno...i haven't finish map reading and.....i'm STILL SLACKING!!!

AHHHHHHHHH!!!!! damn it.... i need water.....

wait a min....what in the world am i doing????

i'm ranting again!!!! awwwwwwwwww shit.... why!!!????

oh well..nvm....i only have one thing to say now....
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goodnight.

2005-04-29T05:28:00.000-07:00

DAMN ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.... I am like so gonna FAIL my chinese. Its sosososososo bad.... i was sniffing and writing at the same time for the compre cus it was so damn freaking difficult!!! Boy, I seriously think my chinese need some, no A LOT of improvement BUT i feel that the compre was really out of our league... my sis tuition teacher said that the compre was for high chinese and i was so shock? WHO THE HELL WILL SET A HIGHER CL PAPER FOR NORMAL CL PAPER??? My guess is XIAO QING.... she's like SO evil..... damn it man... and here i thought i could pass with my compre.... GRRRRRRRR..... nvm... I'll try extremely hard for my Os. Anyway...I can't believe I'm studying physics and blogging at the same time.... well...this shows that I CAN MULTI-TASK Muahahahahahhahahahhaha...
F=ma
P.E=mgh
K.E=1/2mv^2
W=F*D

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
*I think I'm mad*
*well I am*
*am I?*

2005-04-28T00:42:00.000-07:00

I only have one thing to say today..i dun understand why there are evil people around...issit because they are too evil to know that they ARE evil?? are they that dumb and stupid? I dun understand why some people study for the sake of winning others...what's so good about being no. 1? issit because it gaurantees FAME? I personally think that studying is for the sake of urself and i feel that we should strive for our goals. Not because you wanna be the best. so what if you are the best here? there's still someone out there who better brains and better personality... I pity them...why are they like that??? *signs* I guess a leopard can never change it spots. And who are there scheming people around?? I always wonder what's goes inside their mind... revenge? evil plot? hatred? that's crazy... if that's all a person can think I guess that will be a major pity. I feel guilty for ranting this cus there are so many people out there who don't even clothes to wear and food to eat.. should we be that selfish and self-centered. the heavens are watching
and
I
am
waiting
for
justice.

=)

2005-04-27T08:28:00.000-07:00

Thank you for reading.

you are hopeless

2005-04-27T07:59:00.001-07:00

I have not much to say nowadays but i do.

YOU CAN ESCAPE WITH YOUR EXCUSES AND TALL TALES BUT
YOU CAN NEVER ESCAPE THE POWER OF JUSTICE BECAUSE
HEAVEN KNOWS EVERYTHING YOU DO AND EVERY LIE YOU MAKE
AND EVERY WORD YOU SAY

+They are watching every move you make+

Do you dare to swear to the heavens that what you said were ALL true?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you were never the fire starter?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you had always thought of others instead of urself?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you never had a motive?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you never had use anyone as UR tool?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you had never gang up against someone?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you have a heart that would go out for the needy?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you never wanted revenge?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you never played with feelings?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you never add fuel to fire?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you never say " I want to be a lawyer but its for money and i will help the bad guys cus they won't come after me and also gaurantee cash flowing"
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you never betrayed anyone?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you have a kind soul?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you have a selfless heart?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you never plot against someone?
Do you dare to swear to the heavens that you are not despicable and evil?

I dunno much abt you but i do know something.
you have something everyone doesn't

A Fox Tail.

=)

2005-04-16T10:40:00.000-07:00

I finally passed my PFt!!! I am sososososo happy! haha. I seriously didn't think that i would pass my incline pull-up but i did anyway. Haha. Sit and reach was the easiest man. Had no porblems with it. I'm very glad that PFt is over but i have my 2.4 on monday.... I just hope that i can pass. Hope.
Can you believe it? I'm moving house next week and i'm SO excited. The place there is damn nice and quiet. Perfect for studying. Hehs. Its also near the MRT station and central too. Boy, I can't wait. Haha. I wonder who am I gonna invite.
hmmmmmm.... I am finally Maplestory again. It is quite fun too. SO I'm gonna chiong maple again. Muahahahaha.
I still haven't start revision and i am seriously damn worried abt my o level chinese and of course MYE. should I start revising now? Arghhhhhhh... why do I keep asking the same Q. damn it. oh well...anyway.... that's all.. I'm going out with AH ming.

2005-04-15T23:16:00.000-07:00

You Are Pretty Logical

(You got 63% of the questions right)

You're a bit of a wizard when it comes to logic

While you don't have perfect logic, you logic is pretty darn good

Keep at it - you've got a lot of natural talent in this area!

How Logical Are You?

an entry

2005-04-11T19:55:00.000-07:00

Things have been going pretty slow for the pass few days and it is still raining everyday. I really hope i will pass my PFT this friday because i don't wanna take it again that is, if i fail. Haha. I really don't know what to blog actually, but i'm pretty glad i'm out of choir. I don't have to see that bitch's face again and i'm happy for that cause' her face makes ppl wanna cringe in disgust. That's true ppl...she IS a bitch.
There are still many homework and i have to crack my brain almost everyday because most of them are maths and physics... Exams are around the corner and i can't help but feel anxiety because...i wanna do well. Should I start revising now? Teik ling has already started her 4th gear and i'm like only in the 3rd one. Maybe i shld go revise my sec 3 work NOW. I don't have much time on my hand and i'm gonna move house soon too. Damn. Anyway, that's all for today. i need to go do amaths. DANG. stupid homework. I WANNA PLAY MAPLE.

2005-04-08T19:38:00.000-07:00

I don't know. anymore.

2005-04-03T00:52:00.000-08:00

It has been raining so hard these few days. can't help but feel depressed a little. furthermore there's so MUCH homework. luckily i finished chem. emaths and amaths. just left physics to do. but i can't find my trail test. damn it. nvm i'll copy. or do it tomolo. but there's chem and geog test on tues and i have only one day left to study. arghhhhh. f*cK. i'm getting real stressed here. i dun even have much time for my comp. its so pathetic. i wonder if there will be any homework on mon. boy i need a break. but all those piles of paper on my desk prevents me from doing that. damn damn damn. i think my head is hurting now. need to go off....ouch...

ATTENTION PLEASE!

2005-04-01T05:19:00.000-08:00

laliholaliholaliho...but gina i thought you wanted them to know?

2005-04-01T04:13:00.000-08:00

It has been an extremely hectic week, Bio, amaths and physics test. So worn out now...and its like i didn't play the comp for 4 days...4 freaking days man.thats record breaking. there's so many homework too... 3 amaths wksht, 2 emaths wksht, 3 chem wksht, 3 physics wksht, i have geog and chem test on tues...oh yes, I SWEAR my head has expanded 2 inches for the info i had to store in today. Can you believe it? Mrs Tay actually finished 3 wksht in 2 periods... goshh... although integration is easier than differentiation but its still TOO MUCH...man i think i'm stressed...
There was choir today and i had to watch miss poke-my-face-cus-i'm-pokey disgusting and makes-u-wanna-vomit face. gosh soooooooo eeky. I seriously HATE her...after SYF i'm gonna FLYYYYY and of cos i'm not gonna perform on founder's day...NEVER...anyway, i'm not going to go choir anymore after SYF ...cus I simply can't stand the way she treats some members. its like she doesn't care. and its so frustrating also when she is biase to ppl like P and A and others. can't she just treat samuel...abigirl( i dunno how to spell) better. its so unfair..i'm dun mind her treating me bad cus i hate her and she hates me. furthermore i curse her everyday...but some choir members are really sucked up... come on man...history will always repeat itself...they think miss poke-my-face-cus-i'm-pokey treats them REAL good...but in the end IN THE END she will still throw them away when they are of no use to her anymore... just watch guys.. this WILL happen AGAIN... 4E and 5N HATES HER!!!!! and of cos some members of the alumni too... miss poke-my-face-cus-i'm-pokey give up.. choir can't get a silver..its too hard..they may sing well now BUT when they go conference hall its a WHOLE NEW DIFF STORY...they are so nervous they can't make it...its a pity...dun push them too hard its not healthy... and the poor little girls who scolded the sec 4s for leaving...YOU SUX...GO FU*K UR MOTHER FU*KING ASS ( mother ass from kah mings vulgarities collection).

LA LI HO!!

2005-03-26T06:49:00.000-08:00

LA LI HO!! hehehehhee haven't updated for quite awhile but fear not, I am back MUAHAHAHAHA!!!
Miss oon still sux and she's sick. and did i mention that choir peeps have very bad sense of fashion?? okay here goes.. our costume is black skirt with this red i mean BRIGHT red shirt but it isn't that bad.... but our brilliant choir peeps idea of wearing a spaghetti strap inside really sux.. why can't we just wear BRA and button up.. and oh yeahhh the spaghetti strap is PINK OMG PINK!!!!!!!!!!!! if we the costume this way...we will look damn informal... oh well... we always look so damn freaking crappy except for some choir peeps...
I dun wanna buy class tee cus my mum is like already fuming. she says i dun wear the shirt often so what's the point of buying? I kinda agree with her cus I really dun like the barcode stuff...no offence man..but its just not my stuff so...
I'm not gonna buy...
new house is finishing soon and guess what??? the nicest place in the house is actually the kitchen... can you believe it??? i mean its like so damn freaking nice... i love the spotlights in the house... boy..i can't wait to move in... i hate the curtain in my room i prefer blinds ya know... its looks more modern... and its definitely my stuff but curtains... okay if it is nice... i dun mind.. but the one that was chosen suck like hell.... nvm.. i won't put it on during normal days.. just special occasions...heheh..i dun have to face it everyday....glad
so many HW!! can't stand it... those maths wksht are like piling up on my table and i haven't finish my physics... what C.R.O shit... damn... nvm... I haven't start chinese..and i'm so worried about not being able to catch up... haizzz... i think i'm stressssssed... i shld go get some tea to soothe my senses...I shld relax more...OH YES!!! I'm getting a new comp... and i'm like so excited... i shld thanks joshua for making a quotation for me... that shld help me save as much as possible...heheheheeheheh.. i'm glad that the weather is improving...NO MORE SMOKE IN THE MORNING....hehehehe just watched LOTR and I'm addicted AGAIN... its sosososososo nice....can't stand it...man...i feel like watching now... hehs.....I kinda miss something...i dunno what is it... haizzz....
-I'll stand by you-Girls Aloud-

2005-03-18T06:53:00.000-08:00

went choir yesterday. got scolded by miss poke-my-face-cus-i'm-pokey becos i didn't turn up for choir for like seven session and i have to pay 90.95 for my SYF costume...that sux..BUT its edu so not my business..heheh...take that miss oon i dun give A DAMN TO WHAT PUNISHMENT YOU GIVE... because in the eyes of everyone
YOU
ARE
A
FUCKING
BITCH
or shld i say
UGLY FLATTY!!!!!!
MUAHAHAHHAA
hehehehhehehehhe.....school's reopening soon and i still have ss eng and egeog to do !! damn...
my house gonna finish renovating...i'm so happy...oh yeahhh did i ever mention that gaara is sososososososo shuai and cool... gosh...he's so cute...but ULTIMATELY naruto is still the coolest AND cutest...please go narutofan.com and check ALLL the stuff...they are cool...hehehehhe
oh well... i really want a new comp...but haizzz no money...maybe i shld just wait until olevel finishes THEN i get a new one...
-is jeana studying for chinese already?-

2005-03-14T02:49:00.000-08:00

it was such a fun day man... went to singapore poly for some chemical experiment and we actually got to synthesise aspirin!! cooooollllll i think i'm gonna do chemical engineering next time....but...i'm not so sure also..cus i might lose interest...boy..i'm so confused..everybody knows what they wanna do when they grow up but me?? i'm still trying to find something that i would like to do which dosen't include chemical engineering... i'm a really fussy person... so i guess that's why its hard for me then...
I still can't find the ideal bed i want
damn.
listening to Go! flow

holidays are here..finally

2005-03-11T02:22:00.000-08:00

okays holidays are finally here and i somehow feel like it isn't the time to slack...i have choir on tues and thurs and they are like SO boring...mon going cafe cartell...man i'm broke....grrrr....i found out i failed all my e geog test and that sux... i can't afford to fail egeog or ss in o levels cus they are compulsory... haizzz... i dunno if i wanna go with steph...cus its like she's going on thurs and i have choir... and mon i going cafe cartell....so i'm pretty confused now....grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr WAHHHHHH nvm I HAVE MADE MY MIND...decide on mon whether i wanna go, abt thurs... see first...i wonder what time choir ends...have to tell MISS POKE-MY-FACE-CUS-I'M-POKEY if i wanna leave early...hehs...boy i really want to slack man....but i still have holi assignment and that sux a hell lot...dun wanna do...dint even pass up e geog today...i mean only like 8 person passed up??? and there's like 38 ppl in my class... its pathetic... miss yip is gonna flip

Rage Beat

2005-03-09T22:53:00.000-08:00

Gosh...i'm gonna like move house in a few weeks and i'm so so so excited!! hehs and good news too
NO AMATHS TEST TOMOLO YAY!!! SLACK SLACK!! hahaha its really nice man...feels like i'm in holiday mood already...hehehe BUT i dun wanna go choir tomolo...so boringggg....and oh yeah...i'm gonna like invite SO many peeps to my housewarming on eh early april and its gonna be so cool
can't wait for it and of cos can't wait to shop for my new furnitures.... i want A BLACK bed....hehhehehe... it will cool... gonna get a gaara naruto or whole group poster... and paste paste paste!! i think i'm going crazy... hahahahhaa
listening to green day american idiot~

-if jeana doesn't slack, why shld I?-

Smashing Blue

2005-03-09T00:37:00.000-08:00

today is one of my baddest baddest day....dentist sux sux sux...goshhh it was so damn freaking painful and i didn't dare to even make a single noise...boy that really did sux...did pretty well for amaths..happy abt it..bla bla bla...there's another one on fri and it sux of cos...i wanna slack...grrrrr...
i escaped choir today again...which was of cos cool...didn't want to see her damn freaky poked face.
she sux.
my mum told me that my new house is gonna finished renovating next week!!!!!!! so happy....yay new house....NO MORE AEDES mosquito... the town council peeps actually found a huge nest of them in the rubbish dump nearby
*shudders*
GAARA IS CUTE CUTE CUTE AND SHUAIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!
but as usual in the end naruto is still the cutest
end of post.
-if jeana can slack..i can..hehehehhehe-

Today?

2005-03-08T03:55:00.000-08:00

Today was normal...I'm pretty glad that there's no physics but on the other hand i feel sorry for mr tan. Since he has got dengue and i know how having dengue feels. MANY spots and those hurts when you scratch so even if its itchy... you can't scratch... oh well... kah ming came to my house today...yeahh showed my new house also... taught her titration and stuff lahhh...she told me blogging didn't need to manually do html... i felt dumb...cus i taught it was all along like that....haizz..blurrrrrrrrr..hehs... i feel like watching bleach... does anyone think i shld???

Feels like slacking...